Content and Craving

 I seem to have everything I want in life; 

My mom and my sister beside me, 

A loving husband, 

A beautiful child, 

Safe and stable home 

Fulfilling and meaningful career

But I still long for rest, for work-life balance. A life where my son will not get scraps of my energy after each day full of work and dealing with other children. 

I long for the same things, but without worrying about affording the life my son deserves. 

I want safe, relaxing, and clean third spaces. I want peace, but I'm also wanting to live. 

I want my old body back. The one that can eat and not worry about cholesterol, insulin levels, or stored fats. 

I long for my best friend, Mary. This sick mfcker wanderlust cannot seem to root, so I know I’ll always miss her.  

Will trading everything I have now, for a better chance of work-life balance elsewhere be worth it? 

I am a deeply unhappy Filipino, looking to find my love for my identity once again. Can I find it elsewhere?